Downer Post.

sometimes i think i just need to be medicated. heavily.
sometimes i feel like such a waste.

happiness is all around me but i'm not happy. and it's funny because friday night i was so happy. happy to be around other people who seem to be having so much fun in their own lives. (maybe i'm in love with the idea of happiness when in reality it doesn't exist?) i guess what i'm saying is how does one find happiness outside of external things ? internally, i never get any peace because i'm always thinking about shit like this...

sorry if this is a downer post but sometimes one has to admit that it's not all roses.

music is about the only comfort when my mood is like this...*sigh*

Such a lonely day
And its mine
The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day
Should be banned
This day that I can't stand

The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day
Shouldn't exist
A day that Ill never miss
Such a lonely day
And its mine
The most loneliest day of my life

And if you go, I wanna go with you
And if you die, I wanna die with you

Take your hand and walk away

The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Life

Such a lonely day
And its mine
A day that I'm glad I survived